The Real World......
Is a horrible, scary place.
I don't even know where to begin. Let's start with the fact that I'm working doubles almost every day so I can finally catch up on my late fees and everything on my credit cards. I never get to see my boyfriend or my roommate, but I guess that's what I get for shopping too much. I only have a couple more to pay though and I will actually be in a position to start paying my cards OFF. How nice would that be?
So, I'm stressed about the above situation. Now throw in a phonecall from my mom telling me that my 17 year old sister is making me "Aunt Jessica". I drop everything Friday night (including work) to drive home for support. I thought my sister would be tore to pieces over it, I know I would be and I'm four years older than her. But, she wasn't really that upset. I don't think she really understands what having a baby---becoming a MOTHER---really involves and it makes me so sad, and honestly, a little angry. This is my little sister. She hasn't even graduated high school. She's not going to get to experience all the fun things that you are supposed to experience as a young adult. Living in the dorms, going to parties, waking up one morning and decide to skip class and go to the beach with your girls just because you feel like it. She's not going to be able to goto school, at least not right away, and when she does it will take her longer since she won't be able to go full time. She's going to have to work 12-15 hour days making 8.50 and hour just to make ends meet. She's not really going to see her baby that she wants so badly that often. It's not fair. I feel so sad for her because not only will she not get to experience these things, but she has no idea about what she's going to be missing out on.
She won't listen and she's not getting it and I'm getting mad at her. I feel like such a horrible person for being mad at her. I'm supposed to be supportive but I just feel pessimistic. I know that the real world is horrible and harsh and I want to protect her, and my new neice or newphew, from that. But I don't think there is anything I can physically do to help and I feel at a loss. I honestly don't know what to do.
I don't even know where to begin. Let's start with the fact that I'm working doubles almost every day so I can finally catch up on my late fees and everything on my credit cards. I never get to see my boyfriend or my roommate, but I guess that's what I get for shopping too much. I only have a couple more to pay though and I will actually be in a position to start paying my cards OFF. How nice would that be?
So, I'm stressed about the above situation. Now throw in a phonecall from my mom telling me that my 17 year old sister is making me "Aunt Jessica". I drop everything Friday night (including work) to drive home for support. I thought my sister would be tore to pieces over it, I know I would be and I'm four years older than her. But, she wasn't really that upset. I don't think she really understands what having a baby---becoming a MOTHER---really involves and it makes me so sad, and honestly, a little angry. This is my little sister. She hasn't even graduated high school. She's not going to get to experience all the fun things that you are supposed to experience as a young adult. Living in the dorms, going to parties, waking up one morning and decide to skip class and go to the beach with your girls just because you feel like it. She's not going to be able to goto school, at least not right away, and when she does it will take her longer since she won't be able to go full time. She's going to have to work 12-15 hour days making 8.50 and hour just to make ends meet. She's not really going to see her baby that she wants so badly that often. It's not fair. I feel so sad for her because not only will she not get to experience these things, but she has no idea about what she's going to be missing out on.
She won't listen and she's not getting it and I'm getting mad at her. I feel like such a horrible person for being mad at her. I'm supposed to be supportive but I just feel pessimistic. I know that the real world is horrible and harsh and I want to protect her, and my new neice or newphew, from that. But I don't think there is anything I can physically do to help and I feel at a loss. I honestly don't know what to do.
posted by Jessica @ 6:21 AM
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