Can it be over yet?

So I started the new job at cracker barrel....and I really liked it.....until I hated it.

I had a breakdown tonight. I stood in the shower, with the water as hot as it could be, sobbing uncontrollably and just wishing that the water could wash all my worries away.

I HATE WAITING TABLES.

I hate the sidework. I hate menus. I hate sweet and unsweet iced tea. I hate straws, extra napkins, well done steaks and ketchup. I hate rolling silverware. I hate running food. I hate sweeping my section until it's spotless. I hate feeling like a piece of shit.

I'm so tired of waiting tables.....and I realized tonight that no matter where I serve at it's going to be the same. I just want it to be over. I want to graduate and be done with college so I can do something I actually enjoy.

I don't want to be miserable anymore.

Can a girl catch a break?

Ok so after my last post I was thinking everything was cool.....

.....then yesterday morning we went out to my car to find all of the oil from my engine in a giant puddle on the pavement. Ehhhhh not good.

Turns out when the car had overheated it did something to the seals on the oil cooler, and then when it got cold, they cracked and pissed oil everywhere.

So once again, my boyfriend saved the day. He took another day off work and sat outside in the freezing (15 degree!) cold for all day just to get my car running. Even after he went to 5 different places to get the part. Even after the guys at the honda place said that "breaking up with the girl" would be easier and a lot less of a headache than replacing this part. Cuz he loves me and I am so freakin lucky to have him...seriously. The past couple of days would have cost me close to $800 if I had taken it to a shop. Instead it cost me about $50 in parts, and for labor just the price of two chicken caesar salads and a little bit of lovin to warm him up a bit.

In addition Jess was a lifesaver again yesterday and drove me to patient first so I could get my throat in check. The doctor said that I had a "cousin of strep", whatever that means. He said that the past few weeks they have seen a lot of people with the symptoms of strep--severe sore throat, red with white spots on the back, fever, swollen glands--all of which I had, but, the strep test comes back negative. It's still some sort of bacterial infection so he gave me some antibiotics and told me I should be feeling better in a few days. And since my dad is military so my insurance is amazing....the whole visit including the medicine cost me $3. Yes. Three. That freakin rocks.

So today I woke up, my car made it to school ok, I was on time to class, my coffee was hot and fresh and I can feel the medicine working. It looks like the rest of this week will be ok. Brian joked with me that I was running a credit with karma....maybe I can cash in all this bad stuff for a winning lottery ticket? Wouldn't that be nice!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

The past few days have been so crazy and stress filled I just cannot even believe it.

Let's start with Thursday: the only good thing in the past week. I got a new job! I went to the new Cracker Barrel that is opening in 2 weeks and got hired on the spot. A lot of people are a little skeptical, but, it can't be any worse than $28 a shift, which is what I made today. Also a few pluses: you turn your tables like crazy (in 30-45 minutes), there is no tip-out to the bussers and hostesses, and I don't have to speil and provide awesome service. Also, they have a breakfast shift which will be nice to work on the weekends, so maybe I could actually (gasp!) have some nights off to spend with my boyfriend.

I had to ask my parents for money to pay my rent...which they gave me, after making me feel worse than I already did about it. But I am really grateful that they were able to help me out.

Friday I started feeling kind of blah, like I had a cold or something coming on. I worked my shift anyways and made $85. That's right. On a friday night I did not even make $100.

Saturday I had Brian check out my car since I had to put air in my tires....and guess what? I desperately need new tires for my car. My front tires are almost completley bald, but my back tires are fine. Brian, being the amazing man that he is, rotated my tires for me while I was working so that I at least have my good tires on the front!

Yesterday I started feeling more and more like total shit physically, I was running a fever most of the day and my throat was throbbing and my glands are swollen as hell. It was slow as crap at work because of the Superbowl so I made a whopping $26 on my lunch shift....that'll buy some new tires.

Today has been horrible. It started with me waking up feeling like someone had been clawing my throat out all night, still running a fever now combined with a massive headache. Said headache did not get better when my CAR OVERHEATED ON THE FUCKING HIGHWAY. Once again, I am lucky to have such an awesome boyfriend. He took a personal day off work, came and followed me home in my car(which took like an hour cuz we could only go about 2 miles before we had to turn it off and let it cool off), then dropped me off at my apt. I was freaking out because of my obvious lack of money so Jess was real nice and gave me her closing shift for lunch and even drove me there. Brian spent the afternoon fixing my car, luckily it was just a cracked hose that only cost like $12 and not a cracked head gasket like he thought it might of been. My car is fixed now but only after an afternoon of stress and worrying and trying to figure out what I was going to do if the worst case scenerio was in fact true.

Tomorrow morning if I am not feeling better I am going to goto the Dr, since I'm kind of worried I might have strep throat. But as of right now I'm sitting here, trying to study for my test that I have tomorrow but it's hard to concentrate since I feel like total ass and all I want to do is goto bed.